The few weeks or so I’ve been feeling this “tug” on my heart. Not sure how else to describe this feeling. I almost feel like it is God trying to talk to me; asking me to get closer to him and grow more in my faith. I want to have this insanely strong connection to God and spend more time reading the Bible and praying. I went through all my Christian books that have been sitting on a shelf, just waiting to be read. I found a bunch of Bible Studies online that I can follow. I signed up for Pureflix. And as usual, my Christian music plays in the background. I am sick of the world around me… the language that is used, the hateful thoughts that are shared, the sexual exposure, all the violence whether on TV or in the real world, etc. There are so many temptations out there. Also, so many are so focused on material things. Why must we have so many things in our lives? Who needs the latest electronic gadgets or a TV in every room of your home? Who needs so many clothing items that you don’t even wear half of them? I refuse to be of this world. I want to remove the worldly things from my life. I want a new, clean heart and mind. This is something I’ve been praying for lately. I am far from perfect, but I am striving to grow closer to God and to live my life for him.
1 John 2:15-17 Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, love for the Father[d] is not in them. For everything in the world—the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life—comes not from the Father but from the world. The world and its desires pass away, but whoever does the will of God lives forever.
Romans 12:1-2 Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Something someone had asked me when I was younger was, “If you’re watching TV, would you be comfortable having Jesus sitting there next to you watching, too? What about when you’re hanging out with your friends, would Jesus approve of the language that is being used or the topic of conversation?” I am embarrassed to say, no I would not have felt comfortable having Jesus sitting there listening to my conversations or watching the TV shows or movies that I had been watching. This is something I’m looking to change in my life. I’m sure I may lose friends or relatives along the way, but that’s something I’ll have to be okay with. I’m not here to impress anyone; I’m here to live for Christ and his approval is the only approval that I need.
I used to use the excuse that I’m simply too busy to read the Bible or to do Bible Studies. In yet, I had enough time to be on Facebook or other social media. I had time to watch Hulu or Netflix or some random movie. No more excuses.
Growing spiritually is very important to me. I also want to add taking care of my physical health. I have neglected taking care of my body over the years. There have been a few months at a time where I do great with exercising and eating right, but then I get frustrated because I don’t see results. I know my PCOS plays a part in this, and I know I should be happy that I’m doing the best for my body, but it’s disappointing when you work so hard and see little to no results. Enough of the excuses. Not only will I work on my spiritual health, I plan to focus on my physical health, too. I will take care of the temple God has blessed me with.
1 Corinthians 6:19-20 Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.
So, if you’re the praying type, I ask you to pray for me and that this new journey that I’m on is successful and a forever journey. If you’re like me, struggling in the same way that I have been, let me know and I will pray for you, too!